When we went to the hospital tonight, Pip was just kind of hanging out and looking around. We noticed she was the smelly kid in the unit and a bath was pretty much the only solution. We had a lot of fun scrubbing her down and lotionizing her. She was muy grateful to be clean. Well, I guess that she was so happy to be clean that she turned on the smile switch to high voltage. She started smiling while I was getting her dressed and NEVER stopped. Never. I have never felt such a bond with her. I smiled at her, she smiled back. I would sing to her, she would smile. I would shake a toy or give her a kiss, she would smile like it's going out of business. I looked at her and held her close, and she looked at me like she knew I was her mamma. I can't describe what that even felt like. I haven't felt it much, and I've doubted at times that she even knows the difference between me and the nurses. I can say tonight that she does.

It was tough for Jake and I to leave her tonight. We rode our new/old bikes to see her and on the way home I giggled at the cute thoughts of tonight's visit. I love my little girl so much. SO MUCH that I almost need to say a curse to get it in your blasted heads. Dont make me do that. I hope she is like this forever. I hope she plays and kicks and nuzzles and smiles and wiggles and giggles for the rest of my life. I really needed this night. I have never seen my sweet baby like this. I could see how much fun she was having.

Anyway, here are videos (i hope they work) and pictures of the cute-a-thon.